From above

So this week has been pretty crazy. I have not had much time to enjoy my 'me time.' I have been studying and working my little tail off, but it has had its rewards.

Last night I called my mom in tears freaking out about chemistry. It is THE hardest class ever and I don't know what has possessed me into taking it. But after a little sob fest with the mama I went and studied til late in the night (11 pm) with a friend. It is starting to finally click and I am understanding it a little more everyday!

Today has just been long. I have four classes and then I work. Work was crazy today, everyone wanted everything done right then and there were only 3 people trying to help everyone. But we got through it! A poor girl came in frustrated because she had blown $74 on a social science teaching application because the instructions were incorrect. She told me the problem, and I couldn't do anything about it so I went to the girl in charge of me and she couldn't do anything about it so we went to the advisor. He came out and talked to her really quick, because he was confused and she just started to cry. It broke my heart, because I was feeling the same way! We did everything we could to help her, Dave (advisor) put special attention for her and we are doing our best to get everything figured out. It turns out that she witnessed her co-worker having a seizure and it had just been a stressful day. Man, could I relate with her!

Lately I have been trying to figure out what I am going to major in so I can figure out what I want to do. It has caused me some stress, but I have been praying and fasting about it. The thing is I feel that anything would be good, but I really want to do something that I would love. So as I was walking home thinking about everything and wanting the weekend to come right away, I couldn't handle it anymore and started singing my favorite hymn, "How Firm a Foundation."

The second verse came into my head,
"Fear not I am with you, O be not dismayed,
For I am your God and will still give you aid;
I'll strengthen you, help you, and cause you to stand,
upheld by my righteous, upheld by my righteous,
upheld by my righteous omnipotent hand."

This helped me and made me realize that God is still there, and is aiding me everyday. He will strengthen me and help me and he gets me to stand. It may not be literal, but He gets me out of bed, He gives me the strength to not give up, He gives me trust and knows that I can do it.

This thought helped me so much today. I am so grateful for my Heavenly Father, for His tender mercies, and infinite love. There is no way I could ever doubt a living God who loves us, and my testimony that He lives!

-Rach